woe is me…
October 24, 2006 on 7:48 pm | In peeps, rants | No Comments…or more accurately, when it rains it pours. in the past few days:
- my dad found out he has a 2″-3″ aneurysm in his aorta, and they want to operate immediately
- my roommate told me he is moving out, and i *hate* being alone in my place at night
- we’ve had hours-long outages for a high-profile site at work, due to a totally unecessary and recurrent reason
- the weather is getting colder, my skin is getting drier, and it’s getting dark way earlier. whine whine whine
my dad should be fine, though he’s going to stew over every bit of his treatments. they’ve opted to do radiation instead of chemotherapy or surgery for his cancer, which is good. they found the aneurysm, so they can take care of it, which is good. weird part: if i understand my dad correctly, and my dad understands the doctors and his medical charts correctly, they knew he had the aneurysm and told him about it four years ago when he had his open heart surgery. i hope i don’t understand him correctly.
on a brighter note, i love my job more than ever. it pays well, it’s rewarding, the people are smart and fun and interesting. now if i could get my life outside of work into the same lane, i’d be in good shape! i think selling my place in cary may be a good first step – i can reclaim nearly two hours of my day if i can get rid of that damned commute. i might even be able to use that extra time to take organ lessons from the University, and be able to practice again. i’ve got to find a place back in chapel hill…
only in north carolina…
October 23, 2006 on 9:47 pm | In ramblings | No Comments- only in north carolina can i order a falafel with a sweet tea at the state fair.
- only in north carolina does the sharper image store smell like an ashtray, with $200 clock radios blasting Mr. Mom.
- only in north carolina does the temperature drop from 80 degrees to 30 degrees in a little over a day. i’m really not ready for winter yet.
more ketchin’ up
October 16, 2006 on 10:10 am | In organ, peeps | No Commentsi’m currently recovering from a whirlwind weekend of old college friends, weddings, disasters resulting from weddings, and reminders of a life gone by. samira and her friend justin came for matt carroll’s wedding, steve’s brother jeff was in town to “visit” (i’m so southern) and go to football games and state fairs, and sunday was homecoming at the orphanage.
observations:
- pre-digital electronic organs are painful to everyone, not just the organists behind the console and the musicians in the congregation
- i can play praise songs by ear, segue into a traditional hymn, and continue into an appropriate offering — all in Gb and on 4 hours of sleep.
- one can be close to a couple for literally years and not pick up on things they try to cover up, as long as they keep things covered well enough. my jaw hit the floor several times saturday night but i am grateful that this person trusted me enough to open up to me, and consider me a source of support. i can’t believe what she’s been through, all without anyone to help her, or even anyone to listen.
- civil disobedience pays. the alma mater, one of the few traditions left at my church, was cut from this year’s homecoming ceremony. feeling more allegiance to the 100 or so alumni in attendance than to the people who made the decision to cut the song from the service, i dutifully played it for the postlude. several people stopped me after church and told me they wish the alma mater had been announced, as they would have liked it sung. i’m glad that anyone even noticed.
in other news, work is calming down. the server moves went well and not-so-well, ranging from tidy and efficient to glacial and totally bungled, but in any case they’re done for the most part. we’ve spent the past few weeks tracking down problems resulting from the upheaval, and i’ve spent the better part of last week ironing out the last of the leftover configuration problems. next up are slightly more aggressive system changes, but now we have the luxury of taking them one at a time, once we’ve had the opportunity to think things through and plan thoroughly. hopefully we won’t be flying by the seat of our pants again for quite some time.
personal life. i have had almost none. i hope to have more of one now that i’m not working every hour that i’m awake. why do i only like people who are jerks to me? why can’t i be happy with what is available to me? why can’t i just pick up and move to florida or california, marry into money and be a kept man? i’m not giving up hope on that one just yet.
in any case, i’m always happy to have friends in town, or go stay with friends out of town, because it reminds me that i do have friends. i have friends here, of course, but none with whom i am particularly close or bond with tightly. after a year or two of doggedly convincing myself that i’m happy here, at present i can’t convince myself that i can be happy without leaving the triangle area.
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