Date: Sat, 5 Aug 1995 09:36:36 -0300 From: roscraig@fox.nstn.ca (Ross Craig) hi lexie, and all other member whores. I have returned from the jo zone with almost everything intact, if a little frazzled. jojo was here for a week. a week I will never forget. this is the first I have written since the jo left last monday, but I have been reading the group and it's really good to see what jo has prodded all of you to post. real feelings. it's a constant funny joke to see what's on this group with the lurkers lure name. imagine all the lurkers looking for free net sex they don't get here. well not since k-j has been writing from other men's accounts anyway. I 've been checking to see what the doctress and jo have been up to. suspense, that is becoming a little worry. since she didn't call me back that night from portland, I haven't heard or seen a word. jo still said I would hate her and kill her in print, but I could never. I have to confess she was mostly right about me. I wanted not only to show her a different world but hoped there would be something more between us. it was never to be. the moment I met her in person I knew we would not be lovers, (and it's NOT because I thought she was fat - hell I have 20 lbs I don't need too) but still tried to do everything I could for her. but she always suspected me of just changing tactics to get her to fall in love. it wasn't true. then when she made the "famous" remark I really got pissed. I would love for the jo to be famous, for her, but never for me. well maybe the jo bus. that's why I live here in the boonies and love it. my computer is the real exposure to the rest of the world. and I like it that way. so, although jo talks well, she dosen't listen so good and, rarely asks questions she needs answered. because she KNOWS all the answers. I dropped two interviews that were planned because she said I was trying to promote myself, or just trying to be part of something famous. my friends know this is true, but she refused to believe it. jo really does have a big brain, and piercing insight, but leaves no room for error. it's very frustrating. little room for interactive communication. because she knows. and makes up her mind too quickly. but, yes, I still love her for who she is, not for myself. she belongs to all of us, and as she matures, will become a real leader. I hope she finds some happiness. you know real genius finds it very hard to cope with the normal world, always demanding more understanding on their level, and rarely finding it. an insight into her was watching the real pain on her face when she makes a statement she thinks is not understood. the raw emotion, ready to burst into tears. it's fleeting but so real. and scary too. hard to handle. I really hope adam calls her, and they are welcome here anytime. if he knows what is good for him he should call her. because she will NEVER call him. don't be a fool adam, just give her a try. you will never be the same, but you shouldn't miss her. nobody's perfect, but the love she has for you is so powerful, you guys could make magic. I feel bad, lexie, that I haven't written you in two weeks. (tracking the hurricane thinking about you). I've been following your posts, they are a joy, and 421 should read them all . he deserves it. and david.. this is getting to be a really great group. later, i'm going to tell you all about gail - she's here now and we are catching up on all the time we missed, while her children were growing up. and it's magic for us. later you whores, ross Ross Craig East Port Medway, South Shore, Nova Scotia,