
{"id":15084,"date":"2011-01-06T12:20:19","date_gmt":"2011-01-06T17:20:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.carrborocitizen.com\/main\/?p=15084"},"modified":"2011-01-06T12:39:40","modified_gmt":"2011-01-06T17:39:40","slug":"not-having-to-lie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/2011\/01\/06\/not-having-to-lie\/","title":{"rendered":"Not having to lie"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>By Perry Deane Young<\/strong><br \/>\nThe repeal of \u00e2\u20ac\u0153don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t ask, don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t tell\u00e2\u20ac\u009d was a moment in history this old queer never thought he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d live to see.\u00c2\u00a0<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0Like many thousands before and since, I lied when I came to this line in the Army\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s health questionnaire: \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Do you now or have you ever had \u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 homosexual tendencies?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d I had been actively, if secretively, homosexual since early puberty, but I also knew the brutal consequences of being open about those \u00e2\u20ac\u0153tendencies.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<br \/>\nThere came a moment of terror for me in February of 1967 when I stood at the alphabetical end of hundreds of soldiers posing for our graduation picture at the Fort Gordon Military Police School. Lost among that anonymous sea of olive drab, I was stunned to hear my name called out by one of the officers standing down front. Words cannot begin to describe the fear and dread going through my mind as I slowly made my way to the front. Like all homosexuals at that time, I lived in constant fear of being \u00e2\u20ac\u0153found out.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d I honestly felt my hopes and dreams for the future would come crashing down. In fact, I felt I would never have a future except as some silly societal category of lesser human being.<br \/>\nMy fears turned out to be unfounded. An officer handed me my diploma and I slowly made my way back into the stands, amid the whispers of \u00e2\u20ac\u0153what\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s he done, why\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s he so special?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d To this day, I have no idea why I was singled out. All I know is that in that moment, I realized that I could not live with that sort of terror. Some day, somehow, I would have to deal with it. I could not live a lie. A wise old survivor of the death camps in Nazi Germany said it best: \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Freedom is not having to lie about who you are.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d\u00c2\u00a0<br \/>\nHow can anybody believe that being homosexual is some sort of moral choice? Nobody in his or her right mind would choose to live the way homosexuals were forced to live in the 1950s and \u00e2\u20ac\u212260s. Even now, the taint of being homosexual is so strong the suicide rate among gay teenagers is several times that of heterosexuals. The suicide of the young Rutgers student last year dramatically illustrates how far we have yet to go.<br \/>\nDuring my time as a correspondent in Vietnam, I simply got up one morning unafraid to be myself. And, yes, there were some wonderful loving moments I cherish from my days among the military in Vietnam. In his book, Dispatches, Michael Herr mentions two Marines \u00e2\u20ac\u0153making love\u00e2\u20ac\u009d one night during the battle in Hue. And in my own memoir, Two of the Missing, I describe having sex with a Marine in Danang, a Navy Lieutenant in Saigon and an Army captain in Phu Bai. Simply put, there have been homosexuals and homosexual activity among service men and women for as long as there have been service men and women. John Horne Burns\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 The Galleria was a barely fictionalized account of gay American soldiers in World War II Italy.<br \/>\nThe Marine Corps commandant is simply overreacting to outdated images of homosexuality and masculinity in his recent statements against repeal of \u00e2\u20ac\u0153don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t ask, don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t tell.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d He does a disservice to homosexuals and to the Marines. He helps perpetuate the myth that homosexuals are weak and can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be trusted to control themselves in a professional manner \u00e2\u20ac\u201c and he also seems to think the Marines are redneck rubes who can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t handle being around somebody different. The truth is, the commandant is not nearly as aware of societal changes or as sophisticated as the troops he commands. He is concerned about image, and nothing more. The current Marines grew up in an environment of sexual and racial tolerance where being gay is simply not an issue. They also know that the old stereotypes of homosexuals as sissies, pansies, fairies are no more valid than the old stereotypes that denigrated people of color in our country.<br \/>\nThe Marine commandant is wrong about homosexuals and wrong about the kind of men and women who serve in the U.S. military. Admiral Mike Mullen, chairman of the Joints Chiefs of Staff, gave an eloquent summary on both counts in his testimony before a senate committee on Feb. 2, 2010: \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Mr. Chairman, speaking for myself and myself only, it is my personal belief that allowing gays and lesbians to serve openly would be the right thing to do. No matter how I look at this issue, I cannot escape being troubled by the fact that we have in place a policy which forces young men and women to lie about who they are in order to defend their fellow citizens. For me personally, it comes down to integrity \u00e2\u20ac\u201c theirs as individuals and ours as an institution. I also believe that the great young men and women of our military can and would accommodate such a change. I never underestimate their ability to adapt.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d\u00c2\u00a0<br \/>\nAs a gay man swiftly slouching toward the age of 70, I am dismayed by the attitudes that still cause gay men and women to kill themselves. But, I am heartened by changes in the laws that will make it possible for young gay Americans to grow up with the same freedoms everybody else enjoys. It reflects a healthier time for homosexuals and for America.<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 <em>In addition to Two of the Missing, Perry Deane Young is the author of The David Kopay Story (with Kopay) and Gays and Lesbians in Sports. He lives in Chapel Hill.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The repeal of \u00e2\u20ac\u0153don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t ask, don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t tell\u00e2\u20ac\u009d was a moment in history this old queer never thought he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d live to see.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":12,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15084","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-opinion"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15084","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/12"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15084"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15084\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15085,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15084\/revisions\/15085"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15084"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15084"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ibiblio.org\/carrborocitizen\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15084"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}