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1-8
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
961. acChEdhyayA viShayavAgurayA nibaDdhAn
dhInAn janArdhanapadhAvani! sathpaThasThA
prAya: kramENa BhavathI parigruhya moULoU
kAlEna mOchayathi na: krupayA sanAThA
Oh Lord's Paaduka! We are pitiable in that we are caught in the snare
of senses, that is difficult to be cut off except by the Lord. You
descend on our heads, when the appropriate time comes; down from the
upper sky, descending on us, in order, on every one in a row; thereby
elevate us, drawing us out. (Placement of Sataari on the heads in a
row in a shrine is implied.)
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
1). UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh PadhukAs of JanArdhana !
We are caught up in a net , whose meshes can not be cut by any one
than You . We are helpless and stuck in that net of material things.
Out of Your compassion , You grab us by our hair from Your location
in
the sky and pull us out step by step out of the cruel net and rescue
us.
( Swamy Desikan implies that the Paadhukais pull the SamsAris
by the hair of their heads , just as an obstretician pulls the child
out of
a mother's womb and releases it ).
2) Oh JanArdhana PaadhukE! Sad inded are our lot , which longs
for the grief causing bonds of samsAram and the evanescent material
pleasures and beg for more of these same alpa sukhams . In this
matter ,
we are like a fish caught up in the strong net of samsAram and feel
trapped . Oh PaadhukE , who is engaged in nivrutthi mArgam always
take pity on us and decide on pulling us out of our miserable state.
You decide to adorn our heads in PerumAL sannidhi and slowly
pull us out of the net of samsAram. It is sad indeed to enjoy
the pleasures of SamsAram , when You and Your Lord strive
so hard to help us . ( The word JanArdhana is chosen by
Swamy Desikan since the ardha sabdham of JanArdhanan
has three meanings : Ardha-peeDAyAm : one who engages
the Janam in SamsAram (2) ardha-gathou: One who directs
the Janam and (3) ardha-yAchanE : one who is approached by
the janams for boons of all kinds ).
3) Oh JanArdhana PaadhukE ! You are the One , who moves us
to nivrutthi mArgam ( SathpaTasthA ) . You become filled with
DayA for us ( Bhavathee krupayA sanATA ) and gradually
release us , the suffering ones , from the net of samsAric bonds
quickly by grabbing us by our hair ( Bhavathee dheenAn na: mouLou
parigruhya kramENa kAlEna mOchayathi prAya:). We were stuck before
in the difficult to cut net (bonds ) of vishaya sukhams ( acchEdhyA
vishaya
vAgurayA nibhaddhAn dheenAn mOchayathi)...(V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
962. samvAhikA charaNayOrmaNipAdharakshE!
dhEvasya rangavasathErdhayithA nanu thvam
kasthvAm nivArayithumarhathi yOjayanthIm
mAtha:! svayam guNaguNEShu mamAparADhAn
Oh Mother Manipaaduka! You are a dear consort of Lord Ranganatha,
caressing His feet with love. You have a definite influence on Him.
You will, therefore, please do me a favour. You impress upon Him that
my faults and sins are to be included in the list of His virtues
since it is His forbearance, mercy, fondness, etc., which shine forth
in His ignoring my badness. If You intervene in this manner on my
behalf, who dares stop it? None!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
SlOkam 962
1) Utthamur Swamy's anubhavam: Oh MaNi PaadhukE ! You bring
honor on Yourself by serving RanganAthA's sacred feet and holding
on to it firmly . Therefore , who can feel fit to disregard You , who
hide all of our sins in the heap of Your Lord's auspicious attributes
such as compassion, forbearance et al ? Swamy Desikan hints as to
how the PaadhukAs protect the sinners. He says that the PaadhukAs
intercede with the Lord to forgive sinners at the time of serving His
holy feet .
2) SrImath Andavan's anubhavam: Oh Gem-studded Paadhukais of
the Lord of SrIrangam ! Why should I suffer from your slow efforts
to cleanse my mind filled with sins ? Is it not so that my sufferings
are due to Your Lord's anger over my trespasses and condemning me
to travel along the dire SamsAric path full of sorrows ? You are my
dear Mother and the fond wife o the Lord . You are always holding on
to Your Lord's sacred feet . With Your antharanga Kaimkaryams to
Your Lord , You gladden your Lord's heart . He by svabhAvam is
filled with DayA . When He is in a joyous mood due to Your intimate
service , You should intercede for us with appropraite words and
remove His anger towards us , the aparAdhis . Do n' t You have
DayA for us to intervene on our behalf with Your Lord ? Is some one
holding you back from taking such action ? That You do not take this
initiative on behalf of me is only due to my heap of Paapams .
3) Oh MaNi PaadharakshE ! You are the holder of the sacred feet of
Your Lord , who has His abode inside the Ranga VimAnam ( Thvam
RangavasathE : dEvasya charaNayO: SamvAhikA ). Are n' t You also His
dear consort ( DayithA nanu? ) . Oh Mother ( Maatha:) ! Who can stop
You ( Ka: nivArayithum arhathi ) from mingling and hiding my sins in
the heap of the auspicious attributes of Your Lord ( Su tath guNa
gaNeshu mama aparAdhAn yOjayantheem ThvAm ka: nivArayithum
arhathi) ? ...(V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
963. kim vA BhaviShyathi param kaluShaIkavrutthE
rEthAvathApyanupajAthamanEhasA mE
Ekam thadhasthi yadhi pashyasi pAdhukE! thE
PadhmAsahAyapadhapankajaBhOgasAmyam
Oh Paaduka! If You throw Your glance one me, I will be granted an
equality with You in the enjoyment of the bliss of the Lord's Lotus
Feet. Only that remains yet for me to experience. Because I have
reaped all others by my continuous engagement with sins (Any good
deed now and then has given me chances of small rewards too).
Only this remains: the bliss of communion with the Lord's Feet on
par with You!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh PaadhukE ! What else
is going to happen anymore to me , who commits sins almost as
an occupation ? There is only one thing that can happen to me
through Your blessings . That is to become equal to You in enjoying
the experience of serving Your Lord's feet . May thou bless me to
reach a status similar to Yours ! I have enjoyed every thing else
and found them useless.
2) SrImath Andavan's anubhavam : Oh PaadhukE ! Committing sins
is my profession ( Thozhil/Vrutthi) . There is not a paapam that I
have not acquired . There is no end to the narakams that I am
destined to experience . How can I then dream of being blessed with
Bhagavath anubhavam under these adverse circumstances ? Oh PadhukE !
If You decide that I will correct myself over time and come out of
my miseries , I will continue to rot in SamsAram. I will never ever
seek or attain MOksha Sukham . If You decide however to take pity
on me and come to my rescue , then the divine glances of the Lord and
His PirAtti will fall one me and I will be saved from the
debilitating samsAra ruchi . I will gain ParipoorNAnubhavam of Your
Lord. The fact that You do not pay attention to my sufferings is
solely due to my accumulated sins . Swamy Desikan expresses his
nirvEdham this way .
3) Oh PaadhukE ! I have the occupation of commiting sins
perpetually ( kalushaika vrutthE: mE ). Until all these days
( yEthAvathA anEhasApi ) , I have not been the recipient of
Your mercy and the consequent boons ( anupajAtham param
kim vaa? ) . If Your merciful glances fall on me ( Yadhi pasyasi) ,
I will gain a blessed status equal to You in enjoying the glories of
Your Lord's Thiruvadi ( yadhi pasyasi tE PadhmA SahAya Padha
pankaja bhOga saamyam tath yEkam asthi)...(V.S).
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
964. viviDhaviShayachinthAsanthathABhischiram mAm
janithakaluShamitTham dhEvi! dhurvAsanABhi:
padhasarasijayOthvam pAdhukE rangaBharthu:
parimaLaparivAhaI: pAvanaIrvAsayEThA:
Oh Paaduka Devi! Giving room to a variety of evil thoughts, I have
sullied my heart to the effect of its smelling very bad. May You
please make me one of sweet fragrance, by using the flow of pleasant
smell from the Lotus Feet of Lord Ranganatha!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam:Swamy Desikan uses the double
meaning of the word "Vaasana " in this slOkam . Vaasana can mean
either fragrance or the impression unconsciously left on One's mind
by past good or bad karmAs , which therefore produce pleasure or
pain (Swamy Deskan says: " Oh PaadhukE ! Through my KarmAs , I have
been enmeshed in material things and have accumulated a lot of
sins. You must help me get rid of these unplesant odours by
immersing me in the flood of fragrance originating from Lord
RanganAthA' s lotus feet, which have the capacity to annul the
dhurvAsanAs and sanctify me.
2) In the five slOkams (960-964), Swamy Desikan dwells on the
amangaLams (asubhams/ Inauspicous happenings) that are faced by
those, who seek Moksham ( Mumukshu PrapannAs ) during their lives
on this earth thru dedicated pursuit of artham ( wealth ) , Kaamam
(sensual pleasures that do not last) and anyAsraYaNam ( seeking
ithara devathAs for Moksham, which they can not give ). These
asubhams arise form the development of taste (ruchi) for SamsAram.
Swamy Desikan teaches us the need for distaste for such a life and
shows us the way to banish such desires that serve as PrApthi
VirOdham ( Obstacles in the path to attain Moksha Sukham ).
Oh PaadhukE ! From countless time , I have been driven by my poorva
KarmAs to toil in the world of SamsAram and suffer there ( Ref:
Bhagavth GeethA: Chapter 16 : SlOkams .10 and 11 ) . I am stuck in
Pravrutthi mArgam and far away from nivruthti mArgam . I have become
the embodiment of Vishaya Vaasanais . It is normal in this world to
add fragrant things to those which have unplesant smells to
overpower the bad smell. In this context , you should
remove my bad habits (SamsAra Ruchi) with links to You , who is
steeped in the anubhavam of ParamAthmA . You should not confine that
anubhavam to Yourself and you should share with me that anubhava
pravAham (the flow of sweet enjoyment of the Lord's Thiruvadi) . It
is not possible for you to store all that anubhavam within Yourself.
You must make it possible for me to share that Bhagavath
PaadhAravindha anubhavam . That anubhavam will purify me and all the
asubhams of samsAra ruchi will disappear thereafter. If you think
that I will acquire Bhagavath anubhavam after removal of SamsAra
ruchi thru my efforts, it is impossible to achieve.
Why are you indifferent towards me in this matter? It must be my
prArabhdha Karmams that stand in the way as PrApthi VirOdhis .
3) Oh DEvi PaadhukE ! I have been agitated for a long , long time by
the ceaseless activities of my indhriyams propelling me into a whole
gamut of sensory pleasures anfd causing the accumulation of
Sins ( Vividha vishaya chinthA santhathAbhi: durvasanAbhi:
iTTaam chiram janitha kalusham mAmm ). That is how You
find me shackled to sins and full of blemishes (iTTam kalusham
mAmm) . It is through Your efforts that the durvAsanAs accumulated
over many janmAs has to be destroyed by the flood of fragrance
( parimaLa parivAham ) of Your Lord RanganAthA's lotus feet
( Rangabharthu: padha sarasijayO: parimaLa parivAhai :
vaasayETA: ).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
965. sharaNamaDhigathasthvAm shArngiNa: pAdharakshE!
Sakrudhapi viniyuktham thavthsaparyADhikArE
Punarapi kaThamEnam hasthamutthAnayEyam
DhanamadhamudhithAnAm mAnavAnAm samAjE
Oh Lord's Paaduka! Having surrendered myself to You and having
utilized this hand of mine, may be once, at least, in the service of
Yourself, how would I agree to extend the same hand before a person
who revels in the fatness of his wealth? I wouldn't.
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
SlOkam 965
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam : Oh Paadhukais of the Lord
wielding the bow named Saarngam ! How can I , who has taken
refuge in You and worship You use this hand of mine to ask for
money for my jeevanam from egotistic men ? (Swamy Desikan states
that he will not extend his hand used for wordhipping the PaadhukAs
to beg for money from arrogant , wealthy men. He says that it is
absurd to seek the support of mere men , when the most glorious and
powerful Lord with all the wealth is there to grant all the desired
boons ).
2) This is a continuation of the reminder about AnanyArha sEsha
Vrutthi ( Occupation of not asking anyone excpt the Lord for whatever
that is needed for His aarAdhanam ). Swamy says : Oh PaadhukE !
Have not I performed SaraNaagathy already to You for saving me from
alpa prayOjanams and for the conferral of Jn~Anam and Bhakthi alone
to Your Lord ? Do n' t You and Your Lord have the power to confer
ananyArha Sesha vruthti for me and remove all obstacles standing
in the way ( Phala pratibhandhakams) ? How can I seek egotistic
wealthy for my jeevanam and humiliate myself by working for them and
lose my savroopam as the anayArha Seshan of Your Lord ? I can not
engage in such a despicable acts either because of my poverty or
temptations for acquiring wealth . Such activities are not a
celebration of my savroopam and are harmful for Your vaibhavam as
SaraNAgatha rakshakan as well . This thought makes me with alpa
buddhi shudder . I can imagine what a shock that would be for You
both as the most generous Ones and Prabhus in your roles as Parama
Seshis . You must pay attention to my sorrowful state resulting from
my accumulated sins. This is indeed a sad situation causing my
nirvEdham ! Please help.
3) SaarngiNa: PaadharakshE ! I have surrendered unto You
( Aham ThvAm SaraNam adhigatha: ) and have placed MahA
VisvAsam in You to protect me . How can My hands engaged in
performing AarAdhanam for You can be lifted even once to do
some thing against my savroopam as Prapannan ( Sakrudhapi
Thvath SaparyA adhikArE viniyukthan yEnam hastham kaTam
utthAnEyam ) ? That Svaroopa haani will most defenitely arise
from the lifting of my hands before the assembly of haughty rich
men (yEnam hastham punarapi mudhithAnAm mAnavAnAm samaajE
kaTam utthAnEyam ) ...(V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
966. yadhi kimapi samIhE karma karthum yaThAvath
prathipadhamupajAthaI: prathyavEyAm nimitthaI:
avaDhirasi yadhi thvam thathra naImitthikAnAm
sharaNamiha na kim mE shoUripAdhAvani! SyA:
Oh Lord's Paaduka! In whatever act or ritual, prescribed by the
scriptures that we perform, there is always bound to be some gap,
some shortfall, somewhere. For the act to bear fruit in spite of
this imperfection, remedial steps of expiatory nature are a must. If
shortcomings pertain to them as well, where is the end? Indeed You
are the ultimate remedy.* In that case, why not You become, at the
very outset, a refuge to me, an object of surrender! That would be a
deft arrangement!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
SlOkam 966
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam : Oh Paadhukais of the Lord !
When I try to perform a ritual according to SaasthrAs , I run into
the need to carry out atonements because of lapses in knowledge ,
pronunciation of the manthtrAs in accurate manner , materials for
aarAdhanam , physical strength etc. Therefore , I do not get the
full benefit of the rituals and thereby accumulate additional (new )
sins. At these times , I realize that meditation on Your Lord (
KrishNAnusmaraNam ) is the one and only atonement to destroy every
sin . Meditating on Your Lord and meditating on You , who supports
His lotus feet are therefore the most powerful means to bypass all
the lapses in rituals and the attendant atonements . My mind is
clear now . I surrender unto You fully to get the full benefits that
Your Lord confers on those , who take refuge in You .
2) SrImath Andavan's anubhavam: Oh Paadhukais with great affection
for those who seek Your refuge ! On one side , the Paapams create
SamsAra Ruchi through the karmAs associated with Svaroopa Viruddhams
( that are against maintaining one's svaroopam as the Seshan of
the Sarva Seshi , SrIman NarayaNan ). On the other side , there are
interferences to perform Nithya (SandhyA Vandhanam et al) ,
Naimmittikam ( SrArdhams , TarpaNams et al) and Kaamyam
( Support for temples , BhaagavathAs , KarmAs performed to
enhance Bhakthi and Jn~Anam ). When the Manthra lObham ,
Dravya lObham , Tantra lObham , KriyA lObham and SraddhA
lObham interfere with proper performance of Sath KarmAs ,
we perform PrAyascchitthams for removal of sins acquired from
conscious or unintended mistakes . There is no end to these sins
and performances of atonements (PrAyascchitthams) . All of these
endless sins are due to my poorva janma vaasanAs . Oh PadhukE !
One thing is clear to me . Performance of SaraNAgathy to You
results in Kaimkarya Poorthy free of any kind of lObhams (
insufficencies). If this were to be so , how come You did not bless
me to remove all deficencies , which interfered with the performance
of KarmAs in the Saasthraic way ? My paapams must be the reason for
Your indifference to banish my Sathkarma VirOdhis . You are by
nature aasritha Vathsalai . My pApams must be standing in the way of
obtaining Your grace.
3). Oh Soori PaadhAvani ! I long to perform Nitya , Naimithika and
Kamaya kArmAs as ordained by Bhagavath Saasthrams ( kimapi
karma yaTAvath karthum sameehE ). While doing them , the various
insufficencies of mine create Paapams at every step ( karthum
sameehE yadhi prathipadham nimitthai: prathyavEyAm). In the cases of
those dhOshams , You are the limit of all PrAyascchitthams ( Tathra
naimitthikAnAm Thvam avadhee: ). When that is so , why is it that
You do not come to my rescue ( Thvam naimitthikAnAm avadhee:
asi yadhi , mE saraNam kim na syaa: ? ) . . . (V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
967. antharlInaIraGhaparikaraIrAvilA chitthavrutthi:
shabdhAdhInAm paravashathayA dhurjayAnIndhriyANi
viShNO: pAdhapraNayini! chiradhasya mE dhuKhasinDhO:
pAram prApyam Bhavathi parayA vidhyayA vA thvayA vA
The sins stink in me. The mind is confounded. The senses chase
temptations like sound. They are almost unconquerable. How long am I
to suffer in the heat of samsara ocean? Oh Paaduka, who is a dear
lovw of the Lord's Feet! Am I to resort to the Bhakti path called
paravidya or to surrender to You, in order to cross over this ocean?
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Naotes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh Paadhukais in love
with the Thiruvadi of the Lord ! My mind is agitated by the bundle
of sins taking residence there. My faculty of senses ( IndhriyAs)
are under the control of sound , sight , touch et al. They are not
losing in my battle to control them . This situation has continued
for a long time. I do not seem to see the other shore of this sea of
sorrow. Hence , I surrender unto You as the last resort to cross
this ocean of SamsAraa through Your granting the boon of true
knowledge (Para VidhyA ) about Your Lord to me. You are my sole means
to overcome this hopeless situation .
2) SrImath Andavan's anubhavam : Oh Paadhukai with the Vaibhavam of
being fit for the Lord , who pervades all the objects of His
creation ! Oh PaadhukE , who makes the Lord dear to You through Your
abundant love for Him! Please pay attention to my dhurbhAgyam . All
auspiciousness or inauspicousness arise form from the activities of
the Indhriyams (Manas and the five Jna~Endhriyams). My mind from time
immemorial is immersed in the bonds of samasAram and is dull . It has
no potential to generate nivrutthi margam . Such is the pitiable
state of my mind, the king of Indhriyams ! The other Jna~Endhriyams
follow the path of the mind and have become independent to pursue
whatever they want and make me struggle in the horrific ocean of
SamsAram .
What are the upAyams that SaasthrAs show me to reach the other side
of this dangerous ocean of SamsAram ? The first upAyam is Bhakthi
to Bhagavaan based on limitless preethi for Him ; the second is
Prapatthi , which is based on total trust in Him as my protector .
Oh PaadhukE ! The third upAyam is Yourself , who is affectionate to
those surrendering to You (aasritha Vaathsalyam ) , who is
the embodiment of DayA to those who surrender unto You.
Ease of access by all and having glories approaching that of
Your Lord and power to have Your Lord under Your control
are other features of Yours to qualify as the third upAyam .
Oh PaadhukA! Please reflect on what I would seek as my
upAyam. It will become clear to You that I will choose You
alone for my SaraNAgathy as a Prapannan. What will be my
lot , if You do not save me ? What a pity that I have to struggle
for such a long time to gain Your anugraham ! I can not take
this waiting and suffering anymore . Please come to my rescue !
Thus cries out Swamy Desikan in his mood of nirvEdham.
3) Oh charmer of Lord VishNu's sacred feet ( VishNO: Paadha
PraNayini) ! My mind is agitated and murky due to the vyApArams
of my mind filled with addiction to objects that generate sins
( antha: leenai: aghaparikarai: chittha vrutthi aavilaa ) .
My JnA~Endhriyams like my ear , eyes et al are thus
out of control because of the agitated and muddled nature of
my mind ( mama indhriyANi sabdhAdheenAm paravasathayA
dhurjayAni) . adiyEn can not turn them to nivrutthi margam since
they are hell bent to follow pravrutthi mArgam . In this state ,
adiyEn's only hope to cross the sorrowful SamsAric ocean and to reach
the other side of this fearsome ocean is the practise of one of
the three upAyams: Bhakthi yOgam , Prapatthi yOgam and
Yourself ( asya mE chirAth dukkha sindhO: Paaram ParayA
Vidhyayaa vaa , Thvayaa vaa prApyam bhavathi )...(V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
968. gOmAyUnAm malayapavanE thaskarANAm himAmshoU
dhurvritthAnAm suchirithamayE sathpaThE thvathsanAThE
thatthvajnAnE tharaLamanasAm shArngiNa: pAdharakshE!
nithyOdhvEgO Bhavathi niyathErIdhrushI dhurvinIthi:
Oh Lord's Paaduka! How much I hate this world! Fate is indeed too
cruel; but we can understand a few. Jackals will not relish the
Southern breeze; house-breakers will hate the moonlight although its
coolness delights others. Evil-minded persons would not entertain any
interest in a dharmic path, enshrining You as the deity of worship.
Vacillating minds do not endorse acquisition of true philosophical
knowledge; they would hate it and fear it too! This being so,
although by Fate, I disdain life on this planet.
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan(V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh PaadhukAs of SarangapANi !
Foxes are afraid of the gentle ,spring breeze; thieves are afraid of
the cold rays of the Moon; people with bad conduct are afraid of the
righteous ones, who are firm in their devotion to You. All these are
the result of fate. Therefore, while my mind is still clear, I want
to complete my act of total surrender to You an gseek Your
intervention to overcome the ills of this distressful samsAram .
2) SrIamth Andavan's anubhavam: Oh Paadhukai bearing all weapons for
the sake of protection of those seeking Your rakshaNam ! Since You
with svabhAvam of Daya like Your Lord have decided to protect me, I
have joined the path leading to You. For me, the sinful ways of
SamsAram have proven distasteful. It may be desirable to many ,
whether they proficient in SaasthrAs or not. As for me, There is no
compulsion for me to like this distasteful samsAram. The fragrant and
most enjoyable spring air may not be desirable to the foxes
of the forest and they prefer the damp unplesant and cold winds. The
thieves may not like the cool and bright moon. For them the darkness
of new Moon and the darknes of rainy night is preferrable. For those
who have no faith in any doctrine and run from one god to the other
with chapala chittham, the VedAntha mArgam rooted in SrIman
NaarAyaNan may not be desirable. For the aasura prakruthis, the
adharmic pravrutthi mArgam is preferrable over the uplifting
nivrutthi margam with moksha phalan. Such aasura prakruthis
do not have any desire to develop Tatthva thraya Jn~Anam . BhagavAn
directs His anger at them . It is terrible for me to be in the middle
of these aasura prakruthis. Therefore, You must move me away from
this debilitating prakruthi sambhandham. Thus laments Swamy Desikan
out of his nirvEdham.
3) SaarngiNa: PaadharakshE ! For the foxes , there is no great love
for the spring breeze (gOmAyUnAm malaya pavanE nidhyOdhvEga:
bhavathi). They detest it always. For the thieves , there is
resentment against the cool, bright rays of the moon ( TaskarANAm
himAmsou nidhyOdhvEga: bahavathi). For the one with despicable
conduct , there is no desire to follow the auspicous
path leading to You ( dhurvrutthAnAm sucharithamayE ThvathsanATE
saTpadhE nithyOdhvEga: bhavathi). For those with fickle and wavering
mind , there is distaste to seek Tatthva Jn~Anam ( TaraLa manasAm
tathvajn~AnE nithyOdhvEga: Bhavathi).The harshness of Your Lord at
such people is understandable ....(V.S).
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
969. kAlE janthUn kaluShakaraNE kshipramAkArayanthyA:
GhOram nAham yamapariShadhO GhOShamAkarNayEyam
shrImadhrangEshvaracharaNayOrantharangaI: prayuktham
sEvAhvAnam sapadhi shruNuyAm pAdhukAsEvakEthi
(Oh Paaduka!) It is the moment of reckoning. All limbs die down
powerless. A loud noise would arise from the attendants of Yama,
hurrying to take away the life, calling the name of the dying person.
May that noise be not heard to me! May I, on the other hand, hear me
summoned, by the name 'Paaduka Sevaka', by the proximate service-
personnel of Lord Ranganatha, for the purpose of His 'darshan' and
service!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
SrI :
Specail Notes by V.Sadagopan(V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh PaadhukE! at the time of faintness
of my faculty of senses , when death approaches me , I do not want to
hear the frightful sound of the servants of the Lord of Time (
Yamadharma Raajan ) calling me to hell to undergo the punishments for
my accumulated sins ; instead, please bless me to hear immediately
the calls of the dear and intimate servants of RanganAtha hailing me
as the servant of His PadhukAs and requesting me to join in PaadhukA
aarAdhana kaimkaryam .
2)SrImath Andavan's anubhavam: Oh PaadhukE celebrated for
the protection of the sacred feet of SrIman NaarAyaNan , the sole
grantor of Moksham! With Your anugraham , the links to the sarIram is
going to end. Therefore I appeal now for the things that You should
bless me with. I have been committing sins from time immemorial . The
Yama dhUthAs will be sent at the time of death by Yama dharma raajA
to bring me to fierce hells and they will shout at me to follow
them . At that time of terror, You must chase them away by shouting
Your Lord's name and reminding them that I am the servant of Your
Lord. My indhriyams will be weak and will not permit me to utter the
name of Yours and that of Your Lord . I would also be in possession
of poorva vaasanAs and I may end up calling my wife's or my son's
name instead of Your or Your Lord's name. As a result ,the servants
of Yaman wont recognize me as a Prapannan and will scream at me. All
my titles such as Ubhaya VedAnthAcchAr , Sarva Tantra Svatantrar and
Kavi Taarkika Simham wont help me from these Yama dhUthAs during my
last moments . The only thing that would help me would be
the aruLappAdu as " SriMath RanganAtha PaadhukA SEvakan ".
Once the Yama PatAs hear that call , they will say " Parihara
Madhussodhana PrapannAn " ( stay away from the Ones who have
done prapatthi at the feet of Madhusoodhanan ) and cease their
terrifying shouts. They will run away from me . Oh PaadhukE !
You should bless me with this boon during my last moments
on this earth .
3) May I not hear the bone chilling screams of the servants of Yama
during my last moments , when my faculties will be feeble and I would
be helpless . May You spare me from hearing the frightening screams
of the assembly of the servants of Yama dharma Raajan ( Kalusha
karaNE kaalE , janthUn kshipram aakaarayanthyA: Yama parishadha :
ghOram ghOsham aham naakarNayEyam ). May I hear quickly as a
countermeasure the invitation to have the darsana soubhAgyam of SrI
Ranganathan by His BhaagavathAs calling me with the nAmam of "
PaadhukA sEvakan " so that the Yama BhatALs will run away from my
side ! May I hear that aruLappAdu at my last moments !
Sri:
SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,
Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:
970. pAShANakalpamanthE parichithagoUthamaparigrahanyAyAth
pathipadhaparicharaNArham pariNamaya mukundhapAdharakshiNi! mAm
Oh Mukunda Paaduka! At the time of death, I might lie like a
senseless stone. You ought to confer on me, the blessing of contact
with the Lord's Feet, familiar in the case of Ahalya, Gowtama's wife,
(who was made fit to serve her husband), so that I will be enabled to
be a servant of my Lord!
Namo Narayana,
SriMuralidhara Dasan
Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):
1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh Paadhukais of the One , who grants
deliverance from the cycles of births and deaths ! At the time , when
death approaches me , I will be still as a stone and senseless. At
that time, please make me eligible for serving the Lord like You .
May I be blessed by You to serve Your Lord in the manner in which He
made Ahalya eligible to serve at the feet of her husband.
2) Srimath Andavan's anubhavam: In addition to chasing away
the Yama BhatALs , Oh PaadhukaE performing antharanga
Kaimkaryam to Your Lord , You must look at me staying in
a state similar to a stone and raise me from the body via
Moordhanya NaaDi and get me to parama Padham to serve
SrIman NaarAyaNan ,there . May I be blessed with aprAkrutha
sarIram and attan svaroopa aavirbhAvam so that adiyEn can
perform Sarva dEsa, Sarva Kaala , SarvAvasthOchitha samastha
Vidha Kaimakryams to Your Lord and enjoy paripoorNa BrahmA-
nandham at Parama Padham !
3) Oh Mukundha PaadhrakshiNi ! During my last moments ,
as I stay senseless like a stone or a piece of wood ( anthE
paashaNa kalpam maam ) , You should bless me to be
qualified to serve the Lord of the Universe at all times and places
and all states ( Thvam Maam pathi padha paricharaNa
arham pariNamaya ) just as Your Lord qualified AhalyA ,
who stayed as a stone to serve her husband ( parichitha
Gouthama parigrahanyAyAth) again ...(V.S).
NIrvEdhA Paddhathi SampoorNam