Dear Shri Vimal, I might sound funny, but I am telling what I feel. My apologies in case it offends any reader including your kind self, but my intent is not to offend or hurt anyone's belief. It is the prakruthi visesham to think that it is "we" or "I" who does it. There is nothing wrong in it. Otherwise, due to the very belief that we have gathered as we grew, we would think that we would not be motivated to do anything, if we think we are not the doer etc. It is like telling that the mangoes that we ate taste really good, to someone, who has neither tasted the mangoes nor knows what is sweetnees. If that person believes us, he would try it and if he likes it, he would also realize the nature of mangoes and that of sweetness. If the person does not believe us, no matter what you say it would do no good. Similarly, whatever has been told by our acharyas, has been told from the state of realization and not from the state of normal beings. For they were gifted to taste the mangoes. It is upto us to believe them and try the mangoes or be the way we are. There is nothing wrong in it. I may say, Nirhetuka krupa is what is the reality. But, only because, I realize and have felt it and have somehow probably understood it, by, again HIS grace. But, I can't make anyone "understand" it. We can't make anyone understand sweetness of mangoes. Certain things have to be realized. For those who believe(by His grace) in Him, and have realized Him(again by His grace) it is all his play and the whole world is the Leela Vibhuthi. For those who don't believe in Him, it is always their effort that yields result. Either we do something expecting a result out of it and attach ourselves to the result or do something expecting a result, but not attach ourself to the result. No matter what we think, we are all controlled by Him and we can / cannot see the differences only because of Him. Belief and Analysis are usually(not always) opponents. If we believe that He is the controller, then we can't question Him, for we are toys, he made us and he does whatever he wants, he makes us think/not think, of him or of this materialistic world. Nammazhwar says not once or twice, but many times. "yaane nee, en udaimayum neeye", "thannai thaane thudhitthu", "kadal nyalam aavenum, seidhenum kondenum, keendenum, yaane ennum". We can say brahmam is only the Gnyanam, or we can say brahmam has gnyanam or we can say brahmam does not possess any attributes. It doesn't really matter. If one says, he/she would do all the sinful actions and still claim it is only the lord who is doing it, I would challenge that person to do all the sinful actions and see how far he/she can go, for I strongly believe(He is the reason) that one could do good/bad only if HE "wills". As I told before, I may sound wierd, but, this is what I feel and my apologies for any offense perceived. If we say Nirhetuka krupai, then how did we find it? Is it because he blessed us to find it i.e we are not actually finding it but he himself is finding about himself using us? Nirhetuka or Sahetuka krupai are all our own perceptions or concepts and to me, everything boils down to one thing. You may think it sounds like Maya Vadam, but whether we call it leela vibhuthi or maya mayam idham, it is all his play. We have been given roles. We should do that(Again doing this is not really in our hands, He only fools around us;). He confuses us with everything, and make us feel confused. At some point I even feel, "Just go with the flow and do whatever as it comes", for He does everything and even to "go with the flow", He has to will and not really me:))) Whether we try to follow the sampradayam or follow the tradition or try to protect our tradition, it is all in His hands. If we say, we could do anything and everything, that we think as nasty or bad or evil, again, it is His call and all due to Him. People do what they have been taught, told, as they grow, as per the place they are brought up / live in and develop affinity and desire accordingly. I would go with the flow and stick to our sampradayam "blindly" believing in it, enjoying everything, as he is the enjoyer inside us and not we really. Note: I know that the entire thing that I have written above would sound completely out of sense, funny, wierd, stupif whatever, for some or may be many readers. This is exactly what I am trying to establish. What we realize, cannot be explained to others. If we try to, it results in something like above:) i.e He is the doer and He makes us think that He is the doer and why He makes us think is because it is His free will and so on. Analysis has no end. Believing in something and sticking to it and going with that flow is better. "Avar Avar Thamathamadhu Arivari Vagai Vagai" - Azhwar. Kindly do not ask any questions on the above, as I don't have any convincing answers to anything that anyone would comment/question on the above. Please feel free to prove/comment/criticize that the above is completely wrong as per whatever/whomever you may quote, but kindly do not expect any explanation from me as I do not have any that would convince anyone. Adiyen, Ramanuja Dasan. PS: I have realized that Email/internet postings or writing itself for that matter, is not a good medium/way to express/analyze these things. I sincerely pray Him to make all Bhagavathotthamas to contribute nice articles that gives us Bhagavad/Bhagavadha anubhavams, rather than these kind of analysis(may be good for GRE;)
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