3266:##
oorellaam thunchi* ulagellaam naLLiruLaay*
neerellaam thERi* Or neeLiravaay neendadhaal*
paarellaam unda* nNam paambaNaiyaan vaaraanaal*
aar ellE! valvinaiyEn* aavikaappaar inaiyE?* (2) 5.4.1
1. Everybody has slept. The ones who blamed me; the ones who talk good
about me; the ones who gave me company- all sorts of people has gone to
sleep. When everyone is so united in sleeping in this
L......O......N.....G night, When, the whole world is filled with so much
darkness, when the animals on land and in water have gone to sleep, there
is no sound any where and it is so much deafening silence that kills me.
The One, who saved the world during the Cosmic cycle is not coming now to
protect me. The One who has the snake as His bed, is not coming now and is
making me suffer in this night. I have committed so many greatest sins; is
there any one who can save me? (No.) My getting saved- is it possible any
more? No. (This Pasuram is our dearest SrI MaNi.s favourite).
3267:
aavi kaappaar iniyaar?* aazhkadalmaN viNmoodi*
maavi kaaramaay* Or valliravaay neendathaal*
kaavi sEr vaNNan* en kaNNanum vaaraanaal*
paaviyEn nenchamE!* neeyum baaNGgallaiyE?*. 5.4.2
2. Everywhere -it is pitch dark. It is darkness, totally incomparable.
This night appears to be getting Longer and longer. This darkness spans
everywhere- the deep sea, the vast earth, the sky- it occupies everywhere
with huge ugliness. My KaNNan, who is like the fresh bloomed flower
petals, has not yet come. The Ever helpful Lord, is not here to help me.
Oh mind of the greatest sinner (i.e. me!), you are also NOT there to
provide me support and company (because you have gone to Him). aiyO! Who
else can save me! (tvayi rakshati rakshakai kim anyai; tvayi cha arakshati
rakshakai kim anyai- Swami Desikan says in Kaamaasikaashtakam- Oh
NarasimhA! When You have decided to protect some one, where is the need to
look for the protection from other Gods? And when You have decided NOT to
save some one, who is capable of protecting that person?- Simple; But
nettiyadi (hitting straight on the forehead) for those who are after other
dEvathAs;)
3268:
neeyum baaNGgallaikaaN* nenchamE! neeLiravum*
Oyum pozhudhinRi* oozhiyaay neendathaal*
kaayum kadunchilai* en kaaguththan vaaraanaal*
maayum vagai aRiyEn* val vinaiyEn peN piRandhE*. 5.4.3
3. Oh Mind, without you, I can Not do any thing; Even you have deserted
me and do not appear to be doing good to me; This long, vast dark, night
appears to be lengthening more only and is not reducing. It keeps
lengthening. Oh RamA! Like You went to save SitA Piraatti, why are You Not
coming to help me? His Not helping me is due to my lots of paapams and I
am born as a mahApaapi girl in this world. But I do not know how to die
now.
3269:
peN piRandhaar eythum* perundhuyar gaaNkilEn enRu*
oNsudarOn* vaaraathoLiththaan* im maNNaLandha-
kaN periya sevvaay* eNGkaarERu vaaraanaal*
eN periya sindhai_nOy* theerppaar aar ennaiyE?*. 5.4.4
4. The bright Sun also has gone saying that he can not bear to see the
sufferings of those who are born as females. (Excellent- It is still
unfortunately man.s world. The sufferings a female undergoes with so much
patience and endurance is beyond description and words- NampiLLai writes
that ladies always are supported by the male members; they are so soft and
tender and can not bear the pangs of separation - Hence, they are the
Greatest sufferers in this world and undergo more dukkham;- KavimaNi
dEsika vinaayakam piLLai a, tamil poet wrote: moonRu bhuvanatthu poruL
muRRum kodutthu EnRa vazhpaadu iyaRRidinum en Thaay oru naaL
vaLarrthadhukku iyaiyaavE- " Even if one offers all the three worlds and
worship his mother, even then, it will NOT BE EQUAL TO ONE DAY OF HER CARE
AND BRINGING HIM UP- HATS OFF TO ALL SISTERS IN THIS GROUP.) Even Vaamanan
has not come to save me. Who will now remove my sufferings?
3270:
aar ennai aaraayvaar?* annaiyarum thOzhiyarum*
'neerennE?' ennaathE* neeLiravum thunchuvaraal*
kaaranna mEni* nNam gaNNanum vaaraanaal*
pErennai maayaadhaal* valvinaiyEn pin nNinRE*. 5.4.5
5. The mother and friends, who are to help me in such times of crisis are
now sleeping throughout this long night without even bothering to know my
state of sufferings. Okay, if they do not know or care to know; What about
my KaNNa perumaan who has to save me? He also has not come. At least am I
able to end my life? I am not able to do that either. I am just living for
name.s sake.
3271:
pinnNinRa kaadhal nNOy* nencham perithadumaal*
munnNinRu iraavoozhi* kaN pudhaiya moodiRRaal*
manninRa sakkaraththu* em maayavanum vaaraanaal*
inNnNinRa neeLaavi* kaappaar aar ivvidaththE?*. 5.4.6
6. The love disease has been chasing my mind without any interruption or
gap and has been hurting me greatly. The long night appears like the end
of the world and has literally engulfed the whole world and has even
darkened my eyesight. Alas! The ever permanent, My maayavan, Emperumaan
has not come to save me yet. In this state, there is none who can help me
but Him.
3272:
kaappaar aar ivvidaththu?* kangiruLin nuNthuLiyaay*
chEtpaala thoozhiyaaych* selginRa kangulvaay*
thooppaala veNsangu* sakkaraththan thOnRaanaal*
theeppaala valvinaiyEn* dheyvangaaL! en_seygEnO?*. 5.4.7
7. It is His duty to protect me and save me; Even if He does not come,
who else will come to save me? This lengthening night, this cold night
sees the snow drops everywhere. Oh What can I do? In such a might, the
Omni present Emperumaan, with His white Conch and Strong ChakrA, has not
yet appeared. What amount of sins I must have committed for that Most
Merciful Lord even NOT to save me? Oh Gods! The Ones who do not wink your
eyes! You all are awake, but have not helped me (by recommending my case
to the Lord). I am literally crippled and helpless.
3273:
dheyvangaaL! en seygEn?* Oriravu Ezhoozhiyaay*
mey vandhu ninRu* enadhaavi melivikkum*
kai vandha sakkaraththu* en kaNNanum vaaraanaal*
thai vandha thaNthenRal* venchudaril thaanadumE*. 5.4.8
8. Oh Gods! What can I do? This long night literally hurts my body and
thins me down, while the chill breeze enters even my bone. In spite of my
terrible sufferings, He has not come to me. The breeze that others enjoy
is literally burning me (causing more viragha thaapam) like the fire.
3274:
venchudaril thaanadumaal* veengiruLin nuN_ dhuLiyaay*
anchudara veyyOn* aNi nNedundhEr thOnRaathaal*
senchudarth thaamaraikkaN* selvanum vaaraanaal*
nenchidar _theerppaar iniyaar?* ninRu uruguginREnE!*. 5.4.9
9. This long night, with dense darkness, with chill breeze and snow
droplets everywhere, is burning my body like fire. When will there be
light and dawn? When will the bright Sun appear in the East? The Red Lotus
eyed Lord, My Most Beautiful KaNNan has also NOT come; My mind has been
literally weeping thinking of Him. Who else will cure my mind.s sorrows?
3275:
ninRu uruguginREnE pOla* neduvaanam*
senRurugi nuN_dhuLiyaaych* selginRa kangulvaay*
anRu orukaal vaiyam* aLandhapiraan vaaraan enRu*
onRorukaal sollaathu* ulagO uRangumE* . 5.4.10
10. In this dark, long, chill night, Oh my Goodness! There is none to
help me! The whole world is simply NOT bothered about my sufferings.
(AzhwAr.s anubhavam is simply superb; one can really feel this long, night
and loneliness when we suffer with some pain or disease; every body else
sleeps; except the patient.- it is really pathetic. More so, when you are
love sick; Most so, when you are love sick with the Chief Himself!). No
one sympathises with me; He came and appeared in front of mahAbhali! But
He has NOT appeared in front of me yet. Oh No! The whole world is
sleeping!
3276:##
uRanguvaan pOl* yOgu seydha perumaanai*
siRandha pozhil soozh* kurukoor sadagOpan sol*
niRam giLarndha andhaathi* aayiraththu ippaththaal*
iRandhu pOy vaigundham* sEraavaaRu eNGNGanEyO?*. 5.4.11
11. The One who is having His yOgha nithrA on the AdhisEshan, Emperumaan
KaNNan has been sung by SrI SadagOpar in his 1000 pAsurams of
Thiruvaaimozhi. Out of those 1000, those who read these ten- How can they
NOT reach SrI Vaikuntam when they leave from their bodies? (They will
definitely reach and will NOT stay here for any more births to talk about
AzhwAr.s sufferings).